memeasaurus, wow!

2006-04-05T01:10:00.000-07:00

HAHA this blog is totally dead. Suckers.

suspicious activity

2006-01-10T14:17:00.000-08:00

i think everyone is conspiring against me. invisible enemies are all around me.

The Big Lebowski + the big screen

2006-01-03T16:00:00.000-08:00

I'm going to watch The Big Lebowski at the Darkside Cinema tonight.

Yay! I need something fun after having my life sucked up and absorbed by new people and having the old friends (you guys, since no one else reads this) not even really like me anymore. Oh yeah and I got evicted!
HAHA
Roberto Benigni was right; Life is Beautiful!

It's official.

2005-12-19T21:40:00.000-08:00

I'm lonely :(

terminally tired

2005-12-01T08:57:00.000-08:00

terminally fired and permanently tired.

goddammit, it's like i'm tired all the time.

as far as the current hot button issue, i have nothing to say, except that if i suspect you're not telling me something, then i'm forced to try to read into what you do say and jump to conclusions.

look forward to me being suspicious, secretly overanalytical, and jumping to lots of incorrect conclusions from now on.

differences in opinion.

2005-12-01T02:29:00.000-08:00

this probably isnt the best place for me to vent, but i already vented to carol, and it didnt help in the way i hoped it would, despite her general agreement on the issue at hand.

somehow i feel chris will probably agree to, when we commisserate about it tomorrow when i get a chance to talk to him hopefully before i got to work.

well, i guess it comes down to differences in ideals or something.

im not sure how to put it.

i guess maybe i wouldnt be so pissed off if lucas had just met this girl and was casually seeing her, and didnt fucking move her into his room. i know he's known her a while, but shit, theyre fucking living together as of now.

he gave me so much fucking bullshit over even meeting a girl and making out with her.

hell, just last night he was trying to be rude to her over googletalk. hell, i couldnt care. i had already told her about a week ago i had long term plans to move to portland with lucas and that plan didnt involve her. one of the many reasons we werent in a serious relationship of any capacity.

they claim she wont always be around cuz she'll have a job. fuck that. the only time we ever get to talk is in the middle of the night. she wont be working a fucking night shift and you fucking know it lucas.

already he is talking about moving to portland with HER.

look, you fucking prick.

if i had said to you 'oh hey, me and emily want to move to portland together, but its totally cool because we talked it out and you can come live with us too.'

you would have shit a fucking brick and been so god damned pissed off at me.

so im REALLY fucking pissed you'd do the same to me after i MADE SURE not to change my plans one bit for a fucking woman after how much you told me not to fucking get caught up with women.

shes not even been there a DAY and you completely fucking changed your plans on me.

i do not give a FUCK if its ok for me to move in 'with both of you guys.'

because that is utter fucking bullshit.

ok, i give up, this isnt going anywhere.

im just pissed after giving up on making plans around women, i made plans around a good friend, and i just got royally fucked in the ass because of a fucking woman.

my heterosexual life mate, who hassled me so much about women, just dumped me for a fucking woman.

chris, carol, and i are losing our best friend.

the girl im seeing isnt around 24 hours a day.
the girl im seeing im not making long term plans with.
as of next week the girl im seeing will be gone for more than a month and i wont see her at all. ill be seriously surprised if she ends up calling me after that time.

when lucas calls me late at night on googletalk, it will not be emily who fucking answers.

but when i call him, it will never again just be me and him.

god dammit you hypocritical fuck.

im changing my plans now.

to what, i dont know.

but for fucks sake, im not making plans around PEOPLE anymore.

i know thats slightly unfair due to me wanting to come to portland, then changing my mind cuz i wanted to finish college.

but that was me wanting to progress my fucking education.

i didnt change my mind on coming so soon so i could fucking get laid.

but NEVER
did i change my plans
to come and live with lucas.

in fact, i told him i had told emily i planned on going to live with him.
in fact, i told him as recently as last week that because of how work was going, i was seriously considering coming sooner than later just because my job is starting to suck.

there was still a big chance that i would just come to corvallis in february instead of getting a new place here in yakima.

even if i get a new place here in yakima.

im not moving in with a fucking woman.

god dammit lucas.

what the fuck were you thinking?

Tee Hee

2005-11-30T03:52:00.000-08:00

Chuck got a handjob.

so avantcore

2005-11-28T13:26:00.000-08:00

seriously

2005-11-26T17:46:00.000-08:00

someone seriously buy me this please.

guitars...geeks...i like it

2005-11-20T23:22:00.000-08:00

i think i've heard of this site, guitargeek.com before, but it's freaking awesome. they have diagrams of people's guitar rig layouts. no brian gibson though :(

here's agata of melt-banana's setup:

although, according to wikipedia, that setup has changed since that interview, but whatever.
if i ever come into some money, i'm gonna get some pedals and be cool.

in other news, i'm getting better at making noise rock in fruityloops. it makes it easy to write songs, then maybe lucas and i can play live over the drumtrack.

Nineteen Ninety Nerds might just get somewhere. if only we didn't have work getting in the damn way. i thought it would be easier to schedule practices with just two people. maybe we'll just have to start sending shit back and forth over the internet. even though we live in the same town, it's hard for us to live in the same time.

memeasaurus, kablamo!

2005-11-20T16:01:00.000-08:00

you know, guys, memeasaurus.com hasnt been taken and ive been enjoying this community blog experiment. i just broke out my photoshop 7 manual with the tutor cd.

im considering maybe finally putting down for a domain with hosting just for this. (and eventually hopefully some comics. :P )

also, going with hosting and letting me design the site will also give you guys the power to redesign it if you see fit.

it will be easier for us to set up our own features, like a shoutcast server, or our own audioscrobbler like setup, where we upload winamp playlists to our server.

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best dudes forever?

the ubiquity of images

2005-11-20T15:45:00.000-08:00

does our obsession with images result in reduced language skills.

when we are immediately 'showing' someone instead of 'telling' them, are we in reality subjecting ourselves to a steady downward spiral in language development?

its strange to me to watch japanese television and notice how often they use english words; some of them with startlingly correct enunciation. ive caught myself picking up a few words the more i watch things in a different language regularly.

the internet is erasing cultural boundaries with language.

chris, do me a favor and find out if theres any research into what language amalgamation means for culture development.

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also, a nice cohesion of words and pictures that shows it really helps to get the picture...

the language politics of 'geek'

2005-11-19T15:23:00.000-08:00

the word "geek" is appearing a lot in the news. they've even noticed it over at slashdot. i noticed it too, like when the news story i was watching said "blog geeks," and then on that show Foreign Exchange with Fareed Zakaria, he said something about geeks.

None of this stuff was particularly mean spirited.

I just feel like, "hey, don't call us that. That's our word."

does that mean the word "geek" needs to mutate?

any suggestions? "gik" ? "geeka"? "gee"? "gook"? whoa now. that bit of ironic racism is already taken i think. so....i give up.

killoggs?

2005-11-19T15:21:00.000-08:00

i just found this site called killoggs.com, and it has some pretty interesting random shit, like a link to art by Brian Chippendale of Lightning Bolt.

i found the site by searching for "ironic racism" in google, but i never found the reference to it.

weird notebook

2005-11-19T14:04:00.000-08:00

i found this weird notebook in my apartment. it's small and has those cool elastic straps that keep it closed. anyway, never seen it before. it's got some girls' handwriting in it, on what seems like a totally random page. it looks like it was passed back and forth in class...some discussion about who (out of a list of four suspects, listed on another random page) stole something out of one of the girl's bathrooms.

wtf?

lucas is the most synchronous motherfucker i know

2005-11-19T13:49:00.000-08:00

1) he tells someone "snape kills dumbledore," to which they reply "noooo! you bitch!" having never see the ytmnd referencing that.

2) he says "i wish i could put this dollar in the t.v. and get bacon," then, the next commercial starts off with a close-up shot of a dollar being put into a vending machine.

ok...so, you're thinking, yeah, so what? it wouldn't really be impressive if this shit didn't happen all the time with this guy.

the best one, i think, is the melba toast incident. back in college, we went to the cafeteria. lucas looks at the salad bar, sees melba toast, and tries it.

lucas: wow...this is really good.
me: yeah, it's melba toast
lucas: i'm gonna put this is my pockets for later

(ok, that's not the exact dialogue, but you get it)

later that night, we're watching the movie Apt Pupil which isn't all that notable, except that for no fucking reason at all, there's a scene where Ian McKellen looks into the camera and says, "let's have some melba toast."

WTF?

i'm sure he can relate more of these synchronous incidents.

william s. burroughs haiku

2005-11-19T02:16:00.000-08:00

william s. burroughs
has tea with dr. benway
a shot is fired.

A Man Can Dream

2005-11-19T01:25:00.000-08:00

on my way home from work

2005-11-19T01:02:00.000-08:00

i was cold and by the library, so i went in and decided to use my expensive privilege of checking out books. these two relatively new books are really cool so far. if you know me, you probably know that i'm a big fan of deleuze. i recommend these books to anyone interested in complexity theory

...especially deleuze and geophilosophy. it really helps put science in an upfront conversation with philosophy. it also connects signs with materialism (memetics?). and, it deals with questions of structure, agency, and determinism.

Deleuze and Geophilosophy : A Guide and Glossary by Mark Bonta, John Protevi

this book by poststructuralist anarchist theorist Todd May deals with the question "how might one live?" so far, it's just a really good take on what philosophy has had to offer on similar issues like breaking down our preconceived notions and realizing that our subjectivities are products of historical processes (also compatible with memetics).

Gilles Deleuze : An Introduction
by Todd May

in other news, i wound up on the cutting room floor for a story on blogs that i was interviewed for by KVAL in eugene, OR. i guess i'm just too weird (looking and thinking), even for eugene.

looking for a safe stance on abortion?

2005-11-18T21:39:00.000-08:00

me neither.

Douchebag Tony Blankley just said, on The McLaughlin Group (for no apparent contextual reason) that the only people who should have an opinion on abortion are fetuses. I agree.

Hey fetuses...mind if we abort you? What's that? Speak up. I can't hear you.

I guess they don't mind.

i realize you might be saying "hey, if you apply that logic to people who can't communicate, then it would be okay to kill them."

you might be a humorless douchebag.

i'm still pro-abortion. not every piece of genetic material has a "right" to live. that's absurd. a zygote is a single celled organism, which is just as human as any other single celled organism. whether or not the DNA is human or spider is irrelevant, because it's still one cell. so...when's the next possible definitive point we can define humanity? birth. enough said.

Ok, all I'm saying is

2005-11-18T20:43:00.000-08:00

Not everybody who exits the damn grocery store wants to see your fucking dog in their face the second they walk out. I know you people think your dogs are magical beings filled with sunshine happy goodness, but I don't. And your dog ain't too damn pleased to be sitting outside either. Fucktards.

You ever look around on a cold hazy night and think to yourself, "Fucking christ, has the gravity of my festering pit of rotten flesh of a life become so strong that not even the very air can escape?!"
I did that just now on the walk home from the store, and then in true to Alice in Wonderland form responded, "Damn, bitch. You don't think that was a LITTLE overdramatic?" then I was like, "Yeah, fuckall if I ain't silly."

OMG i'm gonna crosspost this to my very own blog. That way we can all read it twice. Ubar.

forty years later

2005-11-18T19:51:00.000-08:00

November 18, 2005:

In Paris, which has an estimated 200,000 homeless, a series of fires in sub-standard buildings killed 48 immigrants earlier this year. “Actions like these are the only way we can be heard,” said a young woman from the poor suburbs on TV.

For many in the middle class these events mark their first awareness of the degree of poverty in their country. Another teen said, “This is a new 1968, not in the universities, but in the projects.” And another: “We want jobs and we want respect.”

Instead, the government has resorted to a heavy hand. It imposed “fast-track trials,” sentencing in a few days almost 150 youth and adults to detention facilities in trials that lasted minutes.

And on Nov. 8 it invoked a 1955 law used during the Algerian War to put in place a 12-day state of emergency. Le Monde blasted the move as “[sending] to the youth of the suburbs a message of astonishing brutality: that after 50 years France intends to treat them exactly as it did their grandparents.”

http://nyc.indymedia.org/en/2005/11/60130.html

December 1965:

Generalized self-management, "extended to all production and all aspects of social life," would mean the end of the unemployment that affects two million Algerians, but it would also mean the end of the old society in all its aspects, the abolition of all its spiritual and material enslavements and the abolition of its masters. The present fledgling effort toward self-management can be controlled from above only because it consents to exclude below it that majority of the workers who don't participate in it or who are unemployed; and because even within its own enterprises it tolerates the formation of dominating strata of "directors" or management professionals who have worked their way up from the base or been appointed by the state. These managers are the state virus within that which tends to negate the state; they are a compromise. But the time for compromise is past, both for the state power and for the real power of the Algerian workers.

from: "Class Struggles in Algeria" by Mustapha Khayati

Published clandestinely in Algeria as a pamphlet, December 1965; trans. by Ken Knabb

athens

2005-11-18T19:47:00.000-08:00

A police cordon separates demonstrators from the Embassy of the United States in central Athens Thursday, Nov. 17, 2005. Protesters gathered in central Athens Thursday to commemorate a 1973 pro-democracy uprising, as 7,000 police braced for possible violence inspired by nightly riots in France. (AP Photo/Petros Giannakouris)

what we need is...

2005-11-18T14:53:00.000-08:00

some memeasaurus radio sidebar goin on.

im talkin shoutcast, mang.

seriously, think about it

flashmug

2005-11-18T13:25:00.000-08:00

dude this is pretty awesome.

its been a while since i dicked around with telephony.

now i think i understand why marcus used to frequent those prank call groups in irc channels.

but the glory days of phreaking are over.

but the flashmobs have just begun.

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anybody want a peanut?

brian peppers has a posse.

this is so not kablamo dudes

2005-11-18T02:01:00.000-08:00

i know this may be reiterating what most people already know about.

but if you havent been watching those 'creative commons comics';

the boys from the lonely island.

youre missing the fuck out, douchebags.

KABLAMO!

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oh yeah dont forget to check out channel101 and channel102.

im out bitches!

i fucking love my hair

2005-11-18T00:14:00.000-08:00

thats why i use garnier® fructis style™ with micro fruit waxes: wetshine gel strong.

i look so fucking hot i want to fuck me.

A Buy-Cott?

2005-11-17T17:27:00.000-08:00

Hugo Chavez, poor people, oil industry profits, etc.
Check it out.

if you're going to give away your ex-presidents...

2005-11-17T17:07:00.000-08:00

...don't give them to living ex-presidents. i'm talking about the bush and clinton katrina fund.

instead, check out the common ground collective

that's my soapbox for the minute.

As far as I'm concerned

2005-11-17T16:30:00.000-08:00

You can keep your blood money. Wait, wait, no, I mean ad money.
PS OMG Carol Sue is actually included in a project, that's fucking crazy.

scott stapp and why he sucks

2005-11-17T16:25:00.000-08:00

remember that meme about how scott stapp is a douchebag who had his sister drive him to florida to get it on with some girl he met in an airport, but it turned out it was a huge prank. yeah, well, that's a pretty good reason as to why he sucks there.

this whole ad thing, though, prompted this. the thing with the ads..well...are we selling out, i guess is the question.

i think this excerpt from an interview with Henri Lefebvre (who will probably not get an ad) about the Situationists might shed some light:

I remember a whole night spent talking at Guy Debord's place where he was living with Michele Bernstein in a kind of studio near the place I was living on the rue Saint Martin, in a dark room, no lights at all, a veritable. . . a miserable place, but at the same time a place where there was a great deal of strength and radiance in the thinking and the research.

K.R.: They had no money?

H.L.: No.

K.R.: How did they live?

H.L.: No one could figure out how they got by. One day one of my friends (someone to whom I had introduced Debord) asked him, "What do you live on?" And Guy Debord answered very proudly, "I live off my wits." [Laughter.] Actually, he must have had some money; I think that his family wasn't poor. His parents lived on the Cote d'Azur. I don't really think I really know the answer. And also Michele Bernstein had come up with a clever way to make money, or at least a bit of money. Or at least this is what she told me. She said she did horoscopes for horses, which were published in racing magazines. It was extremely funny. She determined the date of birth of the horses and did their horoscopes in order to predict the outcome of the race. And I think there were racing magazines that published them and paid her.

K.R.: So the Situationist slogan "Never work" didn't apply to women?

H.L.: Yes, it did, because this wasn't work. They didn't work; they managed to live without working to quite a large extent -- of course, they had to do something. To do horoscopes for race horses, I suppose, wasn't really work; in any case, I think it was fun to do it, and they didn't really work.

So that pretty much explains my view on it. Of course, this isn't the 60s in Paris, so things don't really work like that anymore. So, we'll make a few dollars (if that) and we'll still have to work.

scott stapp sucks

booyah

2005-11-17T15:30:00.000-08:00

organizational issues

2005-11-17T15:25:00.000-08:00

so, when we puts ads up, who is going to start that and how are we going to divide the money? i mean, we should divide the money, right?

have you ever?

2005-11-17T15:14:00.000-08:00

have you ever had a dream that suddenly turned into what amounts to a trailer for a horror movie, but it's like, a really good horror movie, but since it just kinda blasted into your consciousness from nowhere, it kinda scares you. so, you wake up. but it's a horror movie, so you're not sure if you're awake, or if it's going to be one of those "dream within a dream" routines.

so, i guess i'll just listen to skinny puppy and see what happens.

what in the crap?

2005-11-17T11:50:00.000-08:00

what's up with the new version of Nero?

remember Nero...that program you used to use to burn CDs? well, now it's an entire fucking multimedia center clusterfuck. the best part is, the burning tool isn't even part of the typical installation! you have to do a custom install!

at least, that's what i read in some forum. i haven't actually tried that yet, because i just spent half an hour installing it, looking at the ugly ass program that is counterintuitive as fuck, looking at forums for "how the fuck do i burn a cd in nero 7?" then uninstalling it to try again.

i'm thinking i might take a nap before i try again.

no, fuck it. i'll do it now. it'll be a narrative experience.

ok, so i'm in the custom install. it's claiming that Nero Burning ROM is a normal part of the installation...but, whatever. i'm only installing burning rom and the tools related to it.

while i'm waiting for the install, i'd like to say, to software designers everywhere...

QUIT RELEASING NEW VERSIONS OF YOUR SOFTWARE THAT TRY TO FUCK UP THE MEDIA FILE ASSOCIATIONS I ALREADY HAVE!!!
did it ever occur to you that maybe i have my shit set up how i want it and i don't need yet another all-encompassing piece of bullshit. maybe i just want to, you know, do what ever it was that the software used to do in version 1.0

well, now i have to restart for the 3rd time today, so, later.

memes n shit

2005-11-17T02:49:00.000-08:00

you like memes n shit, dogg? well, then you came to the right motherfucking place, bitch. yeah, i went there.

Richard Dawkins ain't got shit on me!!

white folks is crazy!

White Folks is Crazy!

2005-11-17T02:47:00.000-08:00

And Omega Red killed mah baybee!!